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Hello everyone!
Although I found a way around the Fanfiction Net account not working, I am not a happy camper. When strangers change your password and take over your account, but the site managers won't help you get control back over your account, there is a serious problem happening.
For the moment, my only way to access my account is to do so through my facebook page and that is very unacceptable.  I have sent in multiple emails about my password ceasing to work, but due to my having kurahieiritr JIO linked to my facebook page from long ago, I have been outright ignored by the Moderators. So ever since that 5 mirror hack this year happened, my account has been compromised as far as I am concerned and the Fanfiction Net Moderators do not give a damn about that issue.
With Fanfiction net ignoring my request to help me reset my password to secure my account, I am thinking about going to a different site, and/or deleting my current account on fanfiction net and creating a new account that I know is not compromised. As I have an Archive Of Our Own Account, I may be moving all my work there in the very near future so I can delete and create a new account on  fanfiction net. Or I may simply leave for good at this rate. I have my Adult-fanfiction org account and an AO3 account, so it may simply be time to give up on FF net all together since it causes so many headaches.
My fanfiction net account stopped working. All I can figure is that someone changed my password on me and I cannot update my stories now. Talk about pissed off! Of all the crap to have happen, I just had to have my account messed with so I have zero access now! Not sure how I'm going to get this mess fixed because I cannot update any of my stories because of the problem with the password and email not matching up and I only use a couple of passwords at all.


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Josie Oden
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: Tucson AZ
Art mediums include bead mosaic, writing various genres including fan fiction, mixed mediums including poly clay and beads for sculptures.
Print preference: arial fonts
Favorite genre of music: Goth Symphonic or Melodic Metal
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Zen personal or Winamp (on Computer)
Wallpaper of choice: Changes by mood/writing project
Skin of choice: Changes by mood
Favorite cartoon character: only one? Boo hoo
Personal Quote: Practice what you preach. Embody what you want to teach
  • Drinking: coffee

You know how there is a member within every family who drives you crazy, but without them in your life, something is ripped from your world in ways that leave you reeling? Every family or friend group has such a member who cannot be replaced, even though they do things that drive someone in the family and friend group to the brink of madness on occasion.  It is always the one person who you most wish you could strangle at the drop of a hat, and yet you still have to acknowledge loving them dearly no matter what they do when all is said and done. Perhaps your crazy driver family or friend is the uncle at Thanksgiving, or Christmas who pulls the most idiotic pranks imaginable on everyone he can nail with a gag gift or whoopee cushion before he goes home. Being targeted makes everyone but the victim laugh hysterically, and there are always multiple victims before the visit is done so each victim has a laugh and a moment of abject embarrassment. I know you can relate to this example because everyone has such a person in their lives, even if they are not prankster uncles.

For some people it is a single sore spot that throws chaos and anger into the mix of otherwise wonderful relationships that everyone cherishes. Except, the sore spot is always there, and it is a huge elephant in the room some days when one of the pair of people is in the mood to poke the injured bear. A great and close relationship is strained with each demand to look at the sore spot. One or both people are too damned stubborn to give ground at the end of the ever escalating arguments which always seem to have a root of genuine caring about them, so one must always refuse to accept the answer due to assuming they are doing it for the other's good. You cannot hate them because you know they believe with every fiber of their being that they are trying to help you, and take care of you in their awkward fashion, with their heart on their sleeve in such cases. Every other topic is great, and our interests are always very similar in nature. Both love our specific work or artistic hobbies and can spend hours discussing unique aspects of different chosen disciplines. Yet that never easing, single sore spot always remains to cause hurt, confusion, and strain. It is always a subject that neither can let go of, and must always prod sooner or later, exactly as the prankster Uncle can not stop pulling pranks that amuse everyone except the whoopee cushion enduring victim.

In my case, it was religion that strained and ultimately destroyed an otherwise awesome relationship. Perhaps I should say, it was my refusal to convert to a different faith than I know is correct for me that drove Tim Walker,  my ex;  my crazy, no matter what he does- he's family and my friend forever member, to ever greater and obnoxious lectures until we could no longer live together. The religion difference sore spot kept getting worse due to my refusing to become a Jehova's witness for close to 20 years, among other issues.

Sadly, the Monday before Thanksgiving, our son went to check on his father who had not answered his phone as I understand the situation. He found his father's corpse which was two or more days old and our family's world tilted on it's axis in ways that defy explanations.  Tim Walker left a suicide note stating he could no longer stand being in chronic pain and trapped on medications so he was going to remedy the situation. Tim killed himself because of multiple factors, but I think the job loss was the final straw for the man's pride. We do not know how many days he was dead before Ashton went to check on him and his body was discovered.  

The day before Thanksgiving  was the first time we were able to go into the house and start packing Tim's belongings so the land lord could remodel and rent the two bedroom again. At first we were told to take our time and thought that meant we had a month to get everything done. Yet without warning,  we were given a total of 15 days to clear out and strip bare a two bedroom place that had far too much stuff crammed into nooks, crannies, closets (3 of them) cabinets and drawers.  Ashton and I  were informed of the change in plans during day 8 of our 15 day grace period no less. A wonderful friend of the family loaned us his chevy S-10 pickup truck for this insane ordeal. 7 crammed  so tight I had no rearview mirror truck loads of things made it to my home, and Ashton took even more truck loads once someone else chose to loan us a second truck that did not have a shell on the truck bed.

Complicating matters even more, we did not have the funds to get Tim Walker moved from the police morgue into an actual mortuary for almost a month. To raise the money, we have been on constant yard/estate sale status plus taking things to various stores that purchase/consign things to raise the money needed to cremate Tim Walker. I have begun doing the weekend Tanque Verde Swap Meet seller booths to clear out space in my own 1 bedroom apartment. Soon I should be able to walk around in my home and yard again. Needless to say, it took 3 weeks of constant running, packing, unpacking, and dealing with horrible people to get the funds together to cremate Tim Walker since his job loss caused the cancellation of his life insurance policies and everything else. Tim had no burial plan or pre paid anything to fall back on so his body was stuck in the police morgue as no Mortuary will touch a body until such time as all their fees are paid up front.  It was a bad 3 weeks of dealing with utility companies and everything else that is involved with death. But, we managed to sell enough tools that Tim owned to get his cremation paid for so that a mortuary/funeral home would do their job.

Tim's Ashes came home to me on Christmas Eve, December 24th 2015. Despite the fact that we could never find peaceful ground when it came to religions, Tim Walker has always been the one relative and friend that drove me crazy, and yet so totally fit a specific nitch in life that nobody else will ever fill, nor would I wish for anyone else to try to fill Tim Walker's space. WE still have a ways to go before the Wake can be scheduled and Tim's ashes can be taken to the place he loved most in the mountains, but I will keep plugging away at the selling of Tim's possessions every Friday and Saturday until every permit and the like is gotten, and he is at peace in the after life. I made a promise to him 25 years ago. Despite people not understanding how obsessed I am with keeping my word at times, I will persevere through the spring when I hope to take Tim to the Black River area he loved to fly fish so much. I know it is a place e loved a lot, so it is the only fitting place to take his ashes. 

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SuperAndroid18-z-af Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015
Thank you for the group watch 
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Glad I found your site as I love the Lucy and Laxus pairing and cannot find many who share my preferred couple ideology. :)
SuperAndroid18-z-af Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015
;D glad to know 
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, I am back in the writer's saddle for the moment. I will upload the rest of All For Love here after I get Driven Heart completed and loaded at first. I really need to get a lot of steam form the 2 month writing hiatus worked out of my system before I explode with plunnies. My plot bunnies are threatening full revolt at the moment.
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Posted 2 lemon chapters to Alternate Tracks story at yesterday. One was a complete flip over form Keisuke's point of Veiw and rewritten to become Takumi's Point of View. I had already placed the original deleted Lemon chapter into the Romp For Perverts PWP Boy love highlights version, so figured I would revise it into a new direction to give the saem continuity, without being old and dull for readers of the storyline.
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner May 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Got another Chapter up for Alternate Tracks yesterday. Planning to get the next chapter revised and posted by this evening. It is so good to be back to the writing I missed for so many days. Getting sick enough to lose close to two weeks really was a bummer.
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner May 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It is official. I am revising the midway point chapter of Alternate Tracks today. Chapter 24 should be up by this evening on If this chapter progresses in the same way the last lemon chapter did, it is going to go from steamy to smoking. ROFL
azdesertlupine Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Woohoo ~Hawkdaughter. Thanks so much for getting these story links done for me. I suck so much when it comes to HTML. Oy, I still have to add the Bold italics and such to the fanfiction, but at least this one is now protected from the FFnet upcoming purge. :) I am so thankful for all your timely help.
Next up is Alternate Tracks. Story 2. :) Hope you will help with links, or teach me how to use links here.
NekoMarik Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:rose::orange::butterfly: You have been featured here: [link] :rose::orange::butterfly:

(~hawkdaughter suggested you! :la:)
hawkdaughter Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2011
I featured you here: [link]
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